Anxiety...

So, tomorrow is the day I've dreaded since August 8, 2008. I have to return to work from my blissful maternity leave. I'm trying not to get too anxious about it, but I did have a strange/horrible dream about it last night. I dreamt that when I was ready to leave, Kenneth wasn't awake yet, so I took Michael with me. Then I tried to call Kenneth from school to have him come get Michael, and things got all mixed up. When it was time to pick up my class from the gym, Mark (one of the other 5th grade teachers) told me that Andrea (another 5th grade teacher) wasn't there and we had to divide her class between his and mine. Anyway...I really don't want to go, but I know I have to. Michael is just getting to the stage where he seems to be doing new things every day, and I hate that I'm going to be missing a majority of the time he spends awake. But...you gotta do what you gotta do...and since I'm currently making the only income for our family, I guess I gotta do it.

If you think of me between the hours of 8 and 3 central time tomorrow, so a little prayer! Much love to all, and I promise for updates with photos in the near future.